This is me, you may not like it and I do not care.. 

Straight out, I’m a hopeless romantic, yet I hate relationships, because every single one of mine has always seemed to of failed.

I’m emotional & I’m a sook.

I’ve been through some things in life that you wouldnt even be able to comprehend. I used to be the biggest piece of shit that I know, but, I guess as we grow older and mature, we learn from our mistakes, look back on our past and think “what the fuck was wrong with me?”.. Today; I am who I am, what I am and what I want to be.

I’ve played the piano, guitar, bass guitar, drums and sung ever since I was about 7, I couldn’t imagine life without music. Every time I am down, I seem to find myself sitting in-front of my piano, playing songs that somehow remind me of something, or someone. I’ve played in several weddings and been in numerous bands.

I’m religious and the sleeve on my right arm is all related to religion, but I have my own story behind my sleeve. My Virgin Mary crying blood on my fore arm; Mary was meant to be the most beautiful, pure person thats why ‘God’ chose her to have ‘Jesus’ and to me, my mother is the most beautiful person I know and the blood symbolizes pain and suffering, “the most beautiful and pure people still go through pain”.. My praying hands, are for my older brother that died in a car crash. My heavens gates; whether heaven is a real place or not, to me it means that at the end of our journey we will be rewarded. Throughout my sleeve I have feathers of an angel floating around, it means that once we are dead and we are in ‘heaven’ parts of us will float back to earth, memories, sayings, blah blah and impact on other peoples lives.

My views on religion are a lot different to other peoples, I am christian, but I do not believe in jesus nor the things he did, I don’t believe in the bible, but I do believe in ‘god’ maybe not ‘god’ as such, but a greater being. The bible to me and the stories in the bible are just a guide on how to live our lives well and proper, how to treat others and just general, christian compassion.

To me, there is nothing more beautiful than a little childs smile. I have four nephews and nieces and I wouldn’t trade them for the world. They are such beautiful little people and its funny, how much I have actually learnt from them.

My mother, shes a princess, I do not know how I would of survived, or where I would be without her. I love her, I always will, simple as that.

My friends, my brothers, my sisters, you know who you are, you know I would take a bullet for those of you who are true, you know you are my backbone and I would be lost without you. Thank you for sticking by me through the roughest of times, I am forever greatful.

I don’t idolize your normal people.. David Beckham, Tom Cruise, all those sorts of celebrities are nothing to me.. except for Travis Barker (Drummer from Blink 182) but thats a different story.. I look up to people like Nelson Mandela, Martin Luther King Jnr, Ghandi, The Dalia Lama, Oprah, Einstein.. The most beautiful people, that I believe are never truly recognized for what they did.

Tattoos to me aren’t just something you get because in modern day society they are ‘cool’.. I get ink because when I die, I want my story to be on my body, I want people to know what I went through and how I felt about different situations in my life, I want people to know how I think and what I stand for. I want the world to know, that I’m not afraid to be me, I’m not afraid to differ from normality..

I don’t care for brand names clothes, fashion week, celebrities, pay tv, fancy cars.. they are all nice things, but to me, the simple things in life are what really matters.. A smile from a stranger, a hug from someone after you’ve showed them kindness, a kiss from your mother or any family member, one day when I have a child my childs smile and them calling me dad, a stare and smile from your girlfriend, watching the sun set and sun rise, laying in the ocean on my surfboard with nothing but me and mother nature, serenity, nature, laying on the couch and watching movies with the girl you like rather than going out with the boys, having deep and meaningful conversations with my best mates.. There is so much more to life than what the media and popular tv shoes portray.

I believe that we can’t control anyone elses thoughts, appearance, or life, we should accept everyone for being an individual.. We all have a heart to love with and a brain to think with, so just because the government, or politics says you are better than me, tell me, what ACTUALLY makes you better than me? Who are we to say that things are moving around us, maybe we are moving around things? Who are we to say that we are superior beings to every other living creature? Who are we to say, that there isnt another great life form out there waiting to be discovered? Who do we think we are, that we cant even treat the random person next to us on the bus or train with complete importance? Who are we to die nameless? Maybe I’ve done some better things than the president or queen, but I will never receive recognition for them..